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Name: Tawna
Birthday: 9/15/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: I play softball. I hate school. I'm a junior, two years till graduation is too long...ummm i hate lying cheating girls... guys are assholes...i am gonna be a doctor or a nurse... dont know yet... i am really not a player...well, okay you caught me!! :-)
Expertise: ~~~LOVE HURTS~~~
**when am i gonna catch a break**
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  lostnconfuzed29
Yahoo:  sbnut15
Member Since:
7/29/2004
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| i am not emo!!! i just like dark colors and tight jeans... and incubus and hinder are pretty much the stuff!! wow i am not tired!!!!! no more tea for me!!! love you all | | |
| hey its been a while since i have updated this thing... well everything is pretty mellow here, haha can you imagine? Tawna being mellow and not melodramatic? haha crazy! but yeah i am not stressed as much anymore i still am thinking about college a lot but i have like a year and a half to worry about it.. so ya know, not a big deal now... i am seriously concidering UCO.. they have a good nursing program and is close to my life... pretty kewl i think right now softball is a one day a week thing and a couple of tournaments, nothing big, other than the 2 college exposure ones but yeah...i work like everyday and i like that, i dont mind working.. i need to make some money, i need to save money...hmmm yeah as for the "love of my life" or whatever i am not too worried about anymore, right now it doesnt look to good on my point of view of it, but if it's ment to be then it will happen. i have no doubt. but she is not my main focus anymore which is odd cuz she had been for almost 6 months straight, and on my mind for a year and 8 months, pretty pathetic but i cant help my feelings. so me and jamie are talking again. its kinda wierd cuz she hated me and was like a total bitch for a long time, but then again i was freaking immature and would egg stuff on. so hopefully we can both grow up a little and stay friends... it was wierd when we saw each other but at the same time it felt so familiar and i liked that. but we both have changed a lot and i can see us staying on "good terms" for a while at least.... hmmmm its crazy cuz seeing her after a long time and seeing how its make me feel makes me wonder if we could have made it througheverything that happened... i dont know... w/e I LOVE GAY GUYS!!!!! they are my absolute favorite!! haha i miss john,andy, nanette, andri, rebekah,michelle, stef,stevi,brookie,jamie the pirate,cameron,brittany,brandy,ryan.... gaw sooooo many more but i have to go do some homework cuz i gotta work tonight... louv you all!!!!! two fingers Tawna | | |
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i gave blood yesterday... i ran 2 miles... i did homework.. i went to sleep at 9.. i talked to michelle until 9:30 lol thats the second night in a row i have fallen asleep on the phone with that girl... its okay tho, she doesnt mind... i am tired, but its understandable i gave like a pound of my blood to sumone who needed it more than i did... it wasnt bad, the lady that did it was a real bitch tho... but maybe i am the one who was the bitch, i have been in a NOT GOOD mood the past few days... i went from "FRESHMAN POWER" to GRRR i hate the world... no bueno... i hate my hormones , and i have come to the conclusion that i am NOT bi-polar, but my hormones just go up and down more than others...lol... is that laugh worthy? not really. okay so i am babbling but i like to do it so if you read this deal with it or stop reading.. does anyone read this? cuz XANGA is not cool anymore.. not gonna lie i LOVE Xanga! i like myspace, and i dont know how to use facebook, so here i am... so i am on wieght watchers and i lost 3.6 lbs and i have weigh in today!!! but i am FUCKED cuz when i gave blood yesterday they wouldnt let me leave until i ate 3 oreos and 5 nutterbutters and drank 2 gatorades..... so i totally blew the whole 24 POINTS thing... and i didnt even enjoy them like i thought i would, i just felt guilty for eating something i shouldnt... hmmm only a week left of school ball... YAY we beat choctaw the other night, i think we can win our region if we play like we did then... oh i dont know... i dont care anymore... but we have never made it to state in like 98 years... so it would be cool to win it! yeah i think i am done talking, i have a lot on my mind but if i let it out i might start crying again... so thats a negative. peace out | | |
| What do you expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand, and you say you've changed
But girl you know your beggin don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game
So let me on down
Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know
It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Girl you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)
I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate
Go find someone else
In lettin you go, I'm lovin myself
You gotta problem
But don't come askin me for help
Cause ya know
It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Girl you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)
I can love with all of my heart baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you, I don't have a prayer
That's the way to live, yeah oh
It's just too little, too late
Yeah
It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Girl you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late) i have never heard this song before... but i kinda like it | | |
| wow so this week has been pretty rough so far.... did you know the people that put you in the classes you want are really more than that? counselors! i have seen mine this week... TWICE... not for classes, cuz i mean i only have one at PC sooo how can they screw it up? no i was in there BAWLING my eyes out for no reason in particular... damn, stress is hitting me hard right now...i am still trying to catch up on assignments from missed days due to Softball ( grrrrrr i will get to that) at the same time bring my GPA up about a .4 more cuz now i have a 3.5 and that is NO BUENO if i want to get into a decent college... so i cried about that... then i didnt think i was gonna have enough credits to graduate while i was talking Francis Tuttle... so i cried about that... i have wanted to be a doctor since i was about 10 and now i think i just want to be a nurse... not an RN making a decent amount of money, but a CRNA Certified Registered Nurse Anethesis who make a BANG more... you are prolly thinking "thats not a bad decision" but the point of that is i gave changed my mind, so how many more times am i gonna change my mind before i get my degree, or even graduate high school? and i know i am only 17 and should not be worrying about all of this, but i want to succeed (sp) in life and not have to worry about some of the little things my parents do now... i want to be the first of my sisters to go to college and graduate... so i cried about all of that.. then.... i realized i HATE SOFTBALL.... our school ball team fucking sucks and is a waste of my time... i dont know if i wanna play next summer or not... i will cuz i cant quit now, i have played it since i was 4 so almost 13 years of my life and i only have a year left... well, then there is college ball, HAHAHA i dont want to to it.... i know that sounds bad but i really dont. i have sucked this past year like HARD CORE... and i see that, i have no desire to play... fucking stealth did that to me, but whatever... only a week and a half left of school ball, then two tournaments in the fall and practice on sundays.... DAMN it never ends....... so through all of this i was crying for 40 minutes to my counselor and she was there to listen and offer remarks i wasnt expecting.... it was great... i have been really emotional lately, and that is NO BUENO, NO MAS emotional shit.. .i cant take it anymore... as for the love of my life, i miss her. but what else can i do? nothing? cuz i feel like i am loving someone that isnt as interested as i thought... but i dont know...i will continue to wait and continue this until she tells me not to love her.. i dont know anything anymore... so confuzed, so lost, i really need someone right now more than ever... *Lost~ N~ConfuZed* | | |
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